Please Hold screened as part of the Cinema of Gender Transgression Series at Anthology Film Archives in NYC curated by Joey Carducci and Angelo Madsen (pictured above). Joey told me he’s a crier, and had cried a lot the first time he watched the video. I asked him if he could share with me when and why … He took this tally at the screening.
The belated crying tally:
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* Jim Lamb who died in his 20s
* painfully too young
* piano in my kitchen
* PLEASE HOLD sign
* They transformed the way I understood myself (Jih-Fei)
* How do you live with(out) the people who transformed you
* I believe we are recording Marty Fink
* being alive and being in community and getting to have a party
* You are a part of this universe, God made you
* Henry’s piece
* So what did you think?
* They just came from a funeral (the club)
* This scarf belonged to my friend Bryn
* taking a little moment and a breath, which we sometimes need
* holding hands and all of it
* Gavin always says it’s not a real gay bar unless you’ve taken care of someone while they’re dying
* what it means to hold a space when you’re told you can’t hold a space and to hold it anyway.
* bear fruit in video over time
* the way we come to know ourselves through the way we know others
* He was asking to be recorded so he could be released
* It’s just more of the same
* Feed the poor